Sharing a Difficult Childhood and Health Struggles

Ive never knew my dad outside of his wheelchair.

so my dad has a rare disease called "multiplosclerosys" i probably butchered the name but it basicly means his nerves dont work like they should making him paralyzed form the neck down. because of this he slept all day and when he didnt he was in pain and my mom had to treat him. So when i was born i was from whn i could talk tought how to be quiet because "dad is sleepy" ore "dad is tired" if i had pain ore had to cry i was told to do it quietly in a pillow i didnt have a lot of friends and was kinda abandoned by my parents. Not my mom per se she did her best but she always had to treat my father i grew up with having learnt to cry silently and keep my emotions to myself. He never really was there in his life for me even in his early stages where he could still walk a little he wouldnt talk to me ore anything he just said "SOPHIE" (my mothers name) "THE CHILD IS IN MY WAY" because i was like in the general facility of his wheelchair. He watched TV all day too so i never really watched any shows that kids at my school talked about. eating was also a mess as my mom had to feed him while i was early on tought how to eat. when i was born i couldnt youknow... suck the breast for milk my mom poured it into one of those silicone ones and i had to use those because she was caring my dad so yeah thats the story about my fucked childhood