When Desire Becomes Doubt

Original Post

What do you hate about yourself?

Sometimes
I expect a little more—
more than what a moment means,
more than what a person ever promised.
And I watch her laugh
in places I can see,
replying to everyone
like the world is easy for her—
like I’m not waiting
in the corner of it.
I know—
we are nothing.
just friends, maybe not even that yet.
no promises, no claims, no right.
Still,
there’s this small, stubborn voice in me
that whispers—
“just a little more… just me, for a moment.”
And I hate that voice.
Because it turns seconds into questions,
and silence into doubt.
It makes me measure my worth
in replies that never came.
It’s not her fault.
It never was.
She is just being—
free, light, untouched by the weight
I quietly place on her name.
But me—
I sit here
pretending I don’t care,
while checking again,
and again,
and again.
I hate
how something so small
can make me feel so replaceable.
I hate
that I expect
what I never asked for.
And most of all—
I hate that even now,
if her message comes,
I’ll forget all of this…
and reply
like I was never waiting at all.

Reply

Felt it by reading

Reply

Based on true incidents

Reply

sharam aa rahi hai

Reply

😭😭

Reply

dosti chhod ke ishq karne nikle hai

Reply

Aree

Reply

Galat baat

Reply

chal itna bata de kaun hai?

Reply

You shouldn't be brought by it

Reply

because i know who u are

Reply

silence

Reply

aww hurt ho gaya

Reply

lover boy

Reply

wanna FIGHT?

Reply

LADKI KE LIYA?

Reply

Do u really want

Reply

Remember u will be responsible for your own action

Reply

Aww gussa

Reply

ladki ke liya

Reply

do u forgotten your own rules?

Reply

I still don't like fighting

Reply

But it doesn't mean

Reply

U know exactly wht ur asking for

Reply

don't forget u have been untrained for 5 years now

Reply

I still be merciless

Reply

and remember what happens next

Reply

i could loss but still she would also leave you

Reply

like she did before

Reply

I wasn't resting these five years

Reply

If u poke the dragon the dragon will poke you back

Reply

heehee

Reply

jk

Reply

die

The latest from Bangwing IN

The Dark Blooms Poem Spotlight

A haunting poem in Bangwing IN about loss, longing, and lingering echoes. Read the dark blooms and share your thoughts.

Poem: To Far To Reach

Heartfelt poem in Bangwing IN about longing, blue skies, stars and silent love with community reactions and inspiration notes.

Lost Myself: Reflection and Recovery

Poetic announcement about losing oneself, work as escape, and the choice to rediscover or reinvent. Join Bangwing IN to discuss.