Every year,
there’s a point where I quietly disappear.

Not in a dramatic way.
I just slowly stop existing in people’s lives.

Replies get shorter,
the world gets quieter,
and eventually I learn how to survive without being looked for.

I used to think loneliness was peaceful.

Then you happened.

And now silence feels unbearable
because it has your absence inside it.

You come online for a few minutes
without realizing someone spent the whole day
hoping those minutes would happen.

You reply so normally,
so casually,
while on the other side of the screen
my entire mood learns how to breathe again.

And maybe that’s the tragedy of this whole thing—

you probably don’t even know
you became important.

Sometimes I convince myself
you’re just kind.
That you talk to everyone like this.
That I accidentally gave meaning
to something ordinary for you.

But then why does your silence feel personal
when you never promised me anything?

People tell me you’re unpredictable.
That your life is full of chaos, drama, people, noise.

And I sit there wondering
if my existence even reaches you
the way yours reaches me.

Because if I disappeared tomorrow,
your days would probably continue normally.

But mine?

Mine would still pause
every time your notification sound played
in someone else’s phone.

And maybe that’s why
I never told you any of this.

Because the saddest part wasn’t loving you.

It was realizing
you made me feel less alone
during the exact season
I was preparing myself
to disappear again.

“She loved me once.
I didn’t care about the distance, I had your heart.
I was seeking your name in my prayer.
I search for you here and there.
Where are you?
This heart is unknown.”

Whatever I write somehow becomes true.
If you were here, asking me to kill myself,
I would do it without a second thought.
hoping you might regret it,
or I’ll find my peace anyway.

Kaash aise hi.. phir kaise bhi, hum milein har janam…
Kaash yahan bhi ho wahi subah, baarishein humein pukārein har dum…
Har subah dil wahi,
Har dua mein māngū sirf yahi…

Kaash yun hi aur waise bhi, koi aur hai kya in raahon mein…
Kaash yahan bhi ho woh tera hi saath, meri aankhein dekhein tujhe har pal…
Haan wahi naraaz sa,
Rutha hoon, manaao bhi zara sa…

Ajnabi… thhe ajnabi… hain ajnabi…
Aaj dil de, main lautaunga phir kabhi…

Grief, after all, is not just sadness
it’s love, lingering.
It’s the echo of laughter that still lives in quiet rooms,
the memory of warmth that refuses to fade with time.
It’s the way your heart still reaches for them
in moments they once filled so effortlessly.
So don’t rush it...

Don’t try to silence what was never meant to be erased.
Let grief soften you, not harden you.
Let it open you, not close you.
Because in its quiet ache, it carries proof
that you were brave enough to love,
and that kind of love never truly leaves.
It simply changes form,
becoming a quiet strength inside you,
a gentle presence you carry forward.
And one day, you’ll realize
the space it carved in you
is not empty.

It’s filled with everything they ever meant to you💙.

You and I had once intertwined names,
My heart screams only yours.
If I had to pacify,
My blood is red, and white is yours.
Would you care if....
I am asking for just a gaze
Can you hear me?
Or am i lost

Empty roads and shining rain,
I was there, alone again.
No place left to find my love,
You stayed where my heart was enough.
No more heart—
I always knew.
So I let go
Of loving you.

I'm not in a cage, I don't want to be,
I'm not in the words you cared about.
I liked you once in this way,
I was happy and will stay happy.
Was this your wish?
Thank you.
And a love with…
Broken phrase

Do you know me? I was there,
In a red shirt and blue coat.
You had smiled, didn't you,
Seeing me doing stupid things.
Was it a smile,
Or am I fool
You forgot your pen,
Just take it back.
Isn't it yours?

Comfort? I don't want any more,
If you were here, I could hug you.
There is an empty wall, no light,
In silent night, no hope.
I crave comfort,
I was lying,
But don't…
Have you

I can't feel what I was supposed to,
I can't make it start.
Why do I even consider it,
I deserve nothing.
My only scream—
Don't hear it,
it will destroy me
I'm afraid

I want to talk about the recent controversy around a statement by the US president Donald Trump where he used the word hellhole for countries like India and China and how it spread widely across social media

First it is important to understand Donald Trump himself He is an elected leader who represents a large section of American voters but not the entire country The United States is deeply divided and many Americans including officials and citizens have openly disagreed with such statements in the past His style of communication is often blunt provocative and designed to appeal to a specific audience rather than reflect a balanced national position

One major issue in the United States for a long time has been immigration However the situation is more complex than it appears People are not simply divided between supporting or opposing immigrants There is a clear distinction in public opinion between illegal immigration and legal high skilled immigration Many Americans support skilled immigrants who contribute to industries like technology healthcare and research but at the same time there is growing concern about economic competition cultural identity and fairness

Some people argue that immigrants especially from countries like India reach top positions in American companies and question their loyalty or contribution This argument is not entirely logical because migration has always been about moving to places with better opportunities The United States itself became strong due to global talent and contributions from people around the world

When I read comments online I could understand the emotional side of this debate Even though racist or abusive language is not acceptable the underlying frustration comes from a sense of imbalance and insecurity This is something I can personally relate to as someone from Bihar In India people from Bihar often move to other states for better opportunities and face similar criticism They are asked why they do not improve their own state instead of moving elsewhere This creates a similar pattern of resentment and identity conflict

However this comparison also has limits Migration within a country and migration across countries are structurally different Within India people share citizenship and rights while international migration involves legal systems borders and geopolitical factors

Coming to the response from India many people feel that the lack of a strong reaction was disappointing but from a geopolitical perspective it can be seen as a strategic decision Not every statement especially informal or provocative ones requires a direct response India and the United States share long term strategic interests especially in balancing the rise of China Maintaining this relationship is more important than reacting to temporary political statements

The argument that if people are talented they should stay and improve their own country is emotionally appealing but practically flawed Global movement of talent is a natural process It often benefits both the country people move to and the country they come from through knowledge transfer economic links and global networks

Finally there is a concern that the United States is becoming more restrictive and less open to immigrants If this trend continues it could affect its long term growth and innovation However history shows that the US often goes through cycles of openness and restriction and policies change over time

In conclusion this issue is not simple It involves politics economics identity and human behavior While strong emotions are understandable it is important to separate facts from assumptions and look at the situation with a balanced and analytical perspective

Hey there, I have wanted to share something about my social feed for a long time.

My social feed is pretty normal nothing special. Most of the content is about trends, but a major part of it is also about negative things that I dont even like to see. Im talking about posts and videos about or against religion, political parties, countries, influencers, and sometimes just edgy, ragebait content. Whenever I feel like it has crossed a line and I cant handle it anymore I just reduce my usage of the platform.

But today, I wanted to talk about one of those negative topics specifically "Indian Civic Sense." Maybe I will make posts about the other topics later

Regarding civic sense, many influencers openly criticize Indian civic sense based on let's be honest a lot of intentionally flooded bad content designed to target Indians. Criticism is good and necessary, but there's a problem when a person from another country is openly performing racism against your own people, and you agree with them and start hating yourself as an Indian, or hating the people around you, that's not progress.

These influencers are hard on us but have a soft heart for foreigners, acting as if those places are the cleanest and most perfect in the world.

Let me share my own personal points and stories.
Since childhood, we have been taught not to litter on the road and to dump garbage in the correct dustbin. But honestly? Where I live, there is no dustbin. I have always wondered where the dustbins from the textbooks are because I rarely see them nearby. I feel bad about it. I try to find a good place to throw garbage, but the infrastructure simply isnt there. This is clearly an infrastructure issue.

Here’s another story where I did something that lacked "civic sense." On my first day at the gym, I was so nervous. I didnt know how things worked. A trainer came up put a hand on my shoulder and guided me inside. I was so anxious that I entered with my footwear on even though everyone else's were left at the door. After a few moments, someone noticed and asked me to take them outside. It was so embarrassing. But think about that from a third person perspective: What if someone was recording? Would they know my point of view? Probably not

Coming back to social feeds.
I once watched a video where a newly constructed bridge had just been finished and local kids were stealing the screws from it. Why did they do this? If I were there, I would never do that. But why did those local kids do it? They likely werent educated enough and came from a village background. I dont knownshould we just blame "civic sense," or should we provide them with proper education and resources first?

Criticism of civic sense is correct. But what you see on the internet is not always the whole reality. We need to understand why things are happening.

Littering in public places is obviously not as common in some other countries as it is here, but it does happen here. I am confident it will be fixed soon with enough education programs. In our education system, there has always been a focus on academic performance rather than on living standards, life skills, or the environment. Just for example, it's the digital age, right? How many schools in India teach the basics of cybersecurity? As a result, many Indian teens are becoming victims of doxxing, hacks, and scams.

The point of this post is to know the reality. Improve yourself first. Avoid the false reality of the internet. Civic sense is your responsibility, but its also a reflection of the system. Hating and blaming people shows a mindset that is ultimately not productive in this case.

Whats stopping us

• Firstly, I'll say that the server is good and it's done a fair job at maintaining a positive environment. However there have been instances of drama occuring here and I would that it's due to the loop holes and highly flexible nature of the rules and lack of proper reinforcement. So what I would like to suggest is:

• The rules could be more specific and reinforced better to avoid dramas in the server and maintain a positive environment for everyone.

• Furthermore, the server is pretty fun to chat around with people, and that's real nice. Though some things like what I've stated below would make it even better, according to my belief.

• Bots like Owo bot, Slotbot, and Unbelievabot should be added with a specific bots channel. I really believe that'd be fun to have the option to use those bots. (They have games and fun options of usage.)

• I would also like to state that the nature of certain channels should we organized. I've noticed that the gallery and art channel (pardon me if there are other channels like that and I haven't mentioned) have multiple posts by the same person for only singular posts. I was actually surprised at the way it was. A better way would be to allow upto 3 posts per person and tell them to keep uploading in the post they've made prior. That would not only make it less cluttered, it would also help in keeping track of things and finding certain posts easier when someone wants to see something. It would make finding the post easier.

So far that's all I have to suggest. Thank you.

galaxies painted with your story of light,
how you broke shattered into stardust,
how you helped me through the night.

i’ll call you mine, watch me when i do,
for even 3 seconds were enough,
to fall in love with you.

and darling,
i know it seems too far from the truth,
but trust me when i say,
i swear i told the stars about you.

Some wounds stay quiet for years, yet return at night, like unfinished sentences.
The past does not always ask to be remembered..
sometimes it arrives as guilt,
sits beside silence, and turns every peaceful moment into something fragile.
Even love begins to feel temporary, when the mind has already rehearsed every possible goodbye.

The present is the only thing that’s truly real.

Everything written every word, every line is a story, a myth, a memory trying to breathe again.
You can’t smell the air in a sentence. You can’t feel the warmth of a moment just by reading it.
And yet, if your words can make someone feel something real
If they can taste the silence, or hear the wind between your lines
Then you are an artist.
And that’s something to be grateful for, not afraid of.

But of course, no one tells you that at the beginning.
If we knew everything from the start,
We might never have picked up the pen at all.
Still, what you write. however small, however unsure

Might be the first flicker of light in someone’s darkness.
Even if, for now, they’re not ready to step out of the arms they’re in.

i told my friend
i stopped writing about you,
and it’s true, i know.

but darling, i sometimes want to try
of writing again to prove that the way i felt for you was strong enough to stay,
like the love i had for you was
strong enough to make you mine.

— writing of you a few more times before i learn to forget how

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It might be a debatable topic, but for me it was just what I saw, noticed w the every ounce of sympathy and empathy I could feel for those who faced it❤️‍🩹

It might be a debatable topic, but for me it was just what I saw, noticed w the every ounce of sympathy and empathy I could feel for those who faced it❤️‍🩹

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• Firstly, I'll say that the server is good and it's done a fair job at maintaining a positive environment. However there have been instances of drama occuring here and I would that it's due to the loop holes and highly flexible nature of the rules and lack of proper reinforcement. So what I would like to suggest is:

• The rules could be more specific and reinforced better to avoid dramas in the server and maintain a positive environment for everyone.

• Furthermore, the server is pretty fun to chat around with people, and that's real nice. Though some things like what I've stated below would make it even better, according to my belief.

• Bots like Owo bot, Slotbot, and Unbelievabot should be added with a specific bots channel. I really believe that'd be fun to have the option to use those bots. (They have games and fun options of usage.)

• I would also like to state that the nature of certain channels should we organized. I've noticed that the gallery and art channel (pardon me if there are other channels like that and I haven't mentioned) have multiple posts by the same person for only singular posts. I was actually surprised at the way it was. A better way would be to allow upto 3 posts per person and tell them to keep uploading in the post they've made prior. That would not only make it less cluttered, it would also help in keeping track of things and finding certain posts easier when someone wants to see something. It would make finding the post easier.

So far that's all I have to suggest. Thank you.

[ written in an imaged state of mind ]

I smother daffodils between my fingertips,
Forever ignoring the scalding sunrays,
As they lap softly on my burnt skin
(Watch them tremble at the things I’ve been)

And soon, when dusk paints the sky,
I reach out for another page, another quill,
Another time, I sit by the windowsill
(Watch the day flicker when I write of sin)

Darling, people around me must find it funny,
Oh, how I live like a devil and claim that I’m a fairy.
(I held you like the darkness; at least I held me softly)

Your hair is woven through
The breaths in the air,
Darling, it’s beautiful,
But something’s just not there.

Watch the sky crumble
When it sees the way you smile.
Watch this soul be revived again,
Oh, you make it feel alive.