Feminine Male Struggles and Support

I have no feminine male friends that I can relate to, especially those that are alt femmes. I feel unvalued unless I look super cute or pretty to look at and constantly feel like sexualizing myself gets me the most attention. Many social media posts I see about femboys are sexual, unserious, and just bait for attention because they target our fragile egos, knowing most of them don't take us seriously as people. Dating as a femboy is feels like being the second option to women for desperate straight guys since a lot of gay men don't have a preference for femininity. I get 20x more likes on dating profiles when I swap genders to women and it hurts to see this change in attention. Non-relevant addition but I've felt like a loser lately and struggled to make any gaming friends. Recently, I made friends on Overwatch on 4 different occasions and they've all dropped me and their friend groups seem unwelcoming. Looking to mostly vent and not be taken that seriously; I don't accept pity that well.