Hello, I don't know.. but I think I need advice?? or a different kind of perspective. So, my dilemma started a year ago. When my father got sick. He passed away this January. To be honest what happened at that time didn't rattled me a lot, but it was kind of sad.. seeing your parent deteriorate and pass away. I don't know if that is the only sole reason but I think it triggered something in me. I desolate a lot. To be honest I don't have many friends, but I am not a shy person. I have my own thing. I was fine..until I am not anymore. I feel disconnected from reality for the passing months. I bed rot a lot. I keep crying. I keep asking questions..and the worst thing is I don't feel scared or the enthusiasm to my responsibilities in school and life. Like.. the whole thing collapsed and I'm staring at it now in my feet, but I feel calm.. that's what scares me the most. That I am okay with everything falling down.
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I did my best to regulate my habits again. Exercise and meditate and stuff... This had been going on for too long.. 🥹