it took me a lot of courage to type this. every single day i get more tired, physically and mentally. im sensitive asf, and go quiet immediately if someone calls me annoying, or just wanting to cry. a lot of the times I dont open my eyes. i have lots of academic stress that i put onto myself, which only makes things worse. genuinely sometimes at night i debate what's this even worth living for. i wanna get worse because i want people to notice, but once somebody does i immediately shut down and bottle up. it's always been difficult for me to vent. i hate feeling this way. i really do. i just ache even at the simplest actions and wanna throw up every 2 seconds. then to make it worse my home life is shitty as well, my mom always throwing her stress onto me, a dad who barely knows how to take care of his kids, and a brother who struggles academically. im js genuinely so tired of life and wanna end it