Apology and Mental Health Message to Community

I want to apologise to everybody for how I acted. I lashed out at people who never deserved it, and what I said and did was completely uncalled for. I know I hurt and disappointed people that genuinely cared about me, and I hate that I let my emotions get that far. I also want to say that I do see the people who appreciate me, support me, and try to be there for me. I took that for granted, especially Yuni. You didn’t deserve the way I acted towards you or anybody else. Looking back at everything now, I realise how unfair I was.

Sometimes I have uncontrollable tempers and I become someone I don’t even recognise. I’m not using that as an excuse because my actions are still my responsibility, but I just hope people understand that person wasn’t really me. Deep down I’m honestly just a broken and lost soul trying to deal with things in my own head, and sometimes it all explodes in the worst way possible.

None of you deserved to be on the receiving end of that anger. I’m genuinely sorry for pushing people away and turning my pain into everyone else’s problem. I know apologies don’t instantly fix things, but I needed to say this because the guilt has been eating at me. I appreciate every single person who’s shown me kindness, patience, and support even when I didn’t deserve it. Honestly, the reason why I behave in this way is genuinely because you guys mean the world to me. You all honestly mean more to me than you probably realise, which is why things affect me so deeply.

Sorry again, and may is mental health awareness month. I hope everybody forgives me and stay safe.

Jonny x