Hey im gragopc , again.. and i've been keeping this as a secret from everyone even irl , i have crushes , at shcool well since in school its a bit tought to talk to people and they might forget you after and even tho i try to ask them to become a couple they reject me , since ... i js look like a kid to them , and in class i've been develloping some feelings for another person , so i js stare , but i get this thing where if they look at me i INSTANTLY turn away , this happend very much , and the person i get a crush tend to get a little mean sometimes , and even if i make a freind irl or online , ye we do talk but the thing is I have to start a conversation , its like they dont wanna talk to me or they dont miss (well ofc they dont) , and a long time ago i had another freind but a girl (not a couple btw) we had our fun and ups and downs , but the thing is people HATE her for some reason they dotn want me near her (the boys) and even if she sits next to them they feel disgusted and dont wanna sit with her , wich upsets me , and the boys told me to break our freindship apart ... so i did ... , she was pretty upset at first but later she didnt care when we broke our freindship she started getting revenge , and i just got more meaner bcuz the boys who i study with influenced me , well shes gone now , and 2 years from now , the boys who told me to break up , Started to bully me again , i felt sad and upset and there was a new girl who fricking hated my existance so far and js kept annoying me everyday , i dont understand whats wrong with me and why do they hate me , i kept repeating that moment and keep saying that people wont EVER like me , to a point that i just felt to DIE , well atleast my sanity was back after a year when i transfered into a new school , people were nice and all , until they ddint do the same thing , they ignored me ... well i didnt mind so yeah . but the school wa svery nice and kind to me , so yeah all im asking here is that , i want freind