When Desire Becomes Doubt

solarxenon-44 OP

What do you hate about yourself?

Sometimes
I expect a little more—
more than what a moment means,
more than what a person ever promised.
And I watch her laugh
in places I can see,
replying to everyone
like the world is easy for her—
like I’m not waiting
in the corner of it.
I know—
we are nothing.
just friends, maybe not even that yet.
no promises, no claims, no right.
Still,
there’s this small, stubborn voice in me
that whispers—
“just a little more… just me, for a moment.”
And I hate that voice.
Because it turns seconds into questions,
and silence into doubt.
It makes me measure my worth
in replies that never came.
It’s not her fault.
It never was.
She is just being—
free, light, untouched by the weight
I quietly place on her name.
But me—
I sit here
pretending I don’t care,
while checking again,
and again,
and again.
I hate
how something so small
can make me feel so replaceable.
I hate
that I expect
what I never asked for.
And most of all—
I hate that even now,
if her message comes,
I’ll forget all of this…
and reply
like I was never waiting at all.

olivelizard-57

Felt it by reading

solarxenon-44 OP

Based on true incidents

wittypanther-64

sharam aa rahi hai

@wittypanther-64 sharam aa rahi hai
solarxenon-44 OP

😭😭

@solarxenon-44 😭😭
wittypanther-64

dosti chhod ke ishq karne nikle hai

solarxenon-44 OP

Aree

solarxenon-44 OP

Galat baat

wittypanther-64

chal itna bata de kaun hai?

solarxenon-44 OP

You shouldn't be brought by it

wittypanther-64

because i know who u are

solarxenon-44 OP

silence

wittypanther-64

aww hurt ho gaya

wittypanther-64

lover boy

wittypanther-64

wanna FIGHT?

wittypanther-64

LADKI KE LIYA?

@wittypanther-64 wanna FIGHT?
solarxenon-44 OP

Do u really want

solarxenon-44 OP

Remember u will be responsible for your own action

wittypanther-64

Aww gussa

wittypanther-64

ladki ke liya

wittypanther-64

do u forgotten your own rules?

solarxenon-44 OP

I still don't like fighting

solarxenon-44 OP

But it doesn't mean

solarxenon-44 OP

U know exactly wht ur asking for

wittypanther-64

don't forget u have been untrained for 5 years now

solarxenon-44 OP

I still be merciless

wittypanther-64

and remember what happens next

wittypanther-64

i could loss but still she would also leave you

wittypanther-64

like she did before

solarxenon-44 OP

I wasn't resting these five years

solarxenon-44 OP

If u poke the dragon the dragon will poke you back

wittypanther-64

heehee

wittypanther-64

jk

solarxenon-44 OP

die

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