Owner Shares Raw Feelings in Server Announcement
Summary
In Hate this mf stpid fkin place I hate you the owner delivers a raw announcement about ongoing rejection, being dismissed, and the emotional scars left by others. The post details exhaustion from pretending to be okay, frustration at being dehumanized for owning a server, and calls for genuine understanding from the community.
All that hate.
All that rejection.
All those people who made me feel like shit.
All those times I was drowned out, dismissed, ignored or treated like I didn't matter.
I still see it.
I still remember it.
I still see the bullshit.
"Oh, he's the owner."
"Oh, he's Weeb."
The moment you started treating me like some fuckin robot instead of a human being just because I owned a fuckin server.
People act like that shit doesn't leave scars.
Well It does.
And before anyone says that's unhealthy, trust me, I fucking know. I've lived with it every day.
I'm just tired.
Tired of pretending I'm okay.
Tired of pretending positive thinking fixes everything.
Tired of pretending a few nice comments make up for years of damage.
Tired of believing the hype.
Tired of believing that if I just kept going everything would magically fall into place.
Most of all I'm tired of feeling alone while everyone tells me they understand when they clearly fucking don't.
Because if they did understand, they wouldn't keep comparing my situation to theirs.
