And suddenly, I became distant. Distant from people who I used to love and care about. I swore myself I'd never get distant from them but I did. I have never been anything, to anyone, in any way that really mattered. I can see most everything from people's faces. Their hopes, their ambitions. But I often see their regrets. Their hate. But for someone to have felt a genuine connection with me. They would be here. ANYONE would be here. But they aren't. Maybe there's something wrong with me and that i am simply unable to feel loved. They say letting everything out of your brain makes you feel better. But is it really? Is this working? What am I even hoping to find. I could have just gone to notes to type all this again. But maybe I got bored of it? Did you really read all this? Do people THAT kind still exist? Probably not right. I just hate how pathetic I've become and there's no way for me to go back. Maybe I should accept all this. Maybe I should forget all this. But I know, I'll end up in the place again someday. I don't think that's worth trying.